What better way than through a baby? And not just any baby, but a miracle baby!
He’s done it before: Jesus, our savior, was born of a virgin. (OK, God, what I’m asking for is WAY less miraculous than that!)
And He can do it again: I’ve had two biochemical pregnancies this year with our ‘adopted’ embryos and a third that didn’t implant. We’re about to try a fourth time, right before Christmas—and that’s a little bit scary. OK. A lot scary! So this morning, I was praying for a word from God as I read through Exodus about the plagues that God put upon Pharaoh and the Egyptians in order to push Pharaoh to free the Israelites, whom he had enslaved. I honestly expected to get nothing out of this passage as far as my upcoming frozen embryo transfer (FET) goes, but again, God was faithful to meet me and give me two beautiful, and totally applicable passages:
God told Moses and Aaron to go to Pharaoh and ask him to let the Israelites go. Pharaoh was like, “heck no, they’re my slaves,” so God sent some signs and some plagues, all through the hands of Moses and Aaron. First, he caused their staff to turn into a snake. That didn’t impress Pharaoh, so next God used them to turn all of the water in the land into blood. That didn’t convince him either, because some magicians in the land were able to replicate it (they replicated the staff-to-snake one too). Next came some frogs. There were frogs everywhere, y’all—in the Egyptians’ beds, in their stoves. It was a stank-nasty mess. Pharaoh finally came to Moses and basically said, “OK! Alright already! I’ll let your people go. Just please take away these dang frogs!”
“And Moses said,’ (Exodus 8:10) ‘Be it as you say, so that you may know that there is no one like the Lord our God.'”
Wait, did you catch the connection, or am I the only one?
Here’s what I basically said to God in that moment: God, be it as we pray, so that we and everyone watching and praying with us may know that there is no one like you!!!
Guess what? God granted Pharaoh’s request. Bye bye, frogs—but sadly, Pharaoh hardened his heart again. So God used Moses and Aaron to send another plague. He turned all of the dust in Egypt into gnats. There were gnats all up in everyone’s business. Like I said earlier, up until this time the magicians in the land had been able to imitate these miracles and plagues, which had caused Pharaoh to doubt God, but not this one.
“Then the magicians came to Pharaoh and said, ‘This is the finger of God.'” (Exodus 8:19)
Here are the people who can normally make it happen, who can, in a way, imitate God, saying, ‘This was a miracle, Pharaoh. This one was from God.’
When you try to get pregnant for the first time and can do so naturally and fairly easily, you definitely thank God (if you’re a believer)—trust me, I’ve been there, so I’m allowed to say this—but in that situation, pregnancy is just kind of expected, quite honestly: “Sweet. Have sex, get pregnant, have a baby—that’s how it goes. That’s nature. Let’s party!”
But when you have a harder time, when it doesn’t come so naturally, when you’ve hoped and prayed and lost, and hoped and prayed and lost again, and when the doctor, even with the best embryos and best drugs, etc., can’t make it happen for you, it is all entirely different. You know how much has to go exactly right for you to get a baby in your arms. You know that it’s not in your control or even in your fertility doctor’s control—and you and your doctor know when you finally get pregnant, ‘This is the finger of God.’
If I get pregnant this time with my ‘take-home baby,’ it will not be because I cut out caffeine, or because I stuck my progesterone shot in just right every day; it won’t be because my doctor placed the embryo in the ‘sweet spot,’ or because these embryos looked good under a microscope. It will be because it was God’s plan all along. If it doesn’t happen this time, I will be heartbroken, but alas, “He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds” (Psalm 147:3).
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